It seems that whenever something good happens something bad must happen to counter balance it. In my case it was the other way around but it doesn’t really affect the way I feel.Last friday I learned my dog Loki was diagnosed with a tumor roughly the size of a baseball. This news hit me like a ton of bricks.
To be honest I cannot really think of what might happen. I am focusing on what must be done.
I already informed the insurance company and made an appointment with one of the best vet clinics in Holland for surgery. I am determined to give my puppy the best treatment possible I can and as long as he is living his life and has not given up I will be there fighting with him.
But it is inevitable this ordeal makes you more aware of the mortality of those you love, even your pets. It pushes your face into the smelly reality that one day that friend, family member or pet might not be there anymore. It is the sad realization I have come to live with the last couple of days. It is a sensation that makes my heart ache with pain.
As a side effect it makes spending time with the ones you love more meaningful. Cherish the time you have with those you love because in the end you will only have memories or regrets. It does not quite feel like Carpe Diem but it embraces the same principles. Live and love today, there might not be the opportunity tomorrow.
Looking at this, I reflect on my life and how I am with other people. I already know the sorrow of not spending enough time with your friends; one of them moved away and I find myself bitterly sorrowful I did not spend more time with her when I had the chance. It makes me realize that I need to spend more time with friends and relatives when I have the chance.
This is not much of a new year’s resolution but more like a new year’s revelation. It is a beautiful thing, life ia. It is to be celebrated while the party is still going. It is to be enjoyed with those you love and cherish. It is a small miracle.
Carpe Diem.