Well I haven’t posted in a while as you might have noticed. I guess everyone will has moments in time where they just don’t have much to say. But with me it’s also the fact I feel any subject I feel like writing on for starters is utterly insignificant or extreme boring.
I’ve been really busy with a lot of things; work, my own business, doing stuff for the wedding. Weeks have been flying by to the point it sometimes makes me feel like life is just passing by me. It’s not that I haven’t enjoyed myself this way; I love my work, especially when things get challenging. I love building applications and… well… I want to get married, so I need to do all this wedding stuff. 😉
It is now, a moment I took the day off just so I could go to city hall for part of the paperwork I need for the wedding (yes, I had to take a day off, because civil servants apparently only work 3 hours a day) I now have a bit of time to write something. The last weeks I tried starting to write something there was always stuff ‘in the way’ or ‘which had to be done’. As a result, I really didn’t bother, even though some of these things were matters I love to write about or simply wanted to vent.
Right now I have a hard time fighting between the things I need to do and the things I want to do. The Battlestar Galactica Season 1 box set has made me crave to play Freelancer a lot (an old addiction of mine ;)) but at the same time I need to finish the control panel for the business. Not that this isn’t fun but it can be rather frustrating at times. Right now I am just at the point that I feel this thing needs to be done. This is why I do force myself to focus on the panel, rather than to indulge in cravings.
At times I feel that time is slipping through my fingers with every second, which leaves me with a sensation of urgency of getting stuff done, but with the feeling it will not be done in time… or done at all… ever. It’s rather irrational (as feelings usually are) but even logic cannot simply wave it away. All I can do instead is just work my ass off in the hope it will be done soon.
I know you will get it done 🙂 You are a doer and you get things done, not always in the time you would hope for but I’ve always been able to trust that when you start something it will be finished.
Now if only I could learn that skill X_x
Omg.. where did your Zoloft ad go? I was so very interested in the effects of this exiting presciption druk!
I swallowed it.